Jul 102015
 

It’s been rainy today. It seems fitting, because it’s been a melancholy day so far. Ten years ago on this day I was on my first date with my late husband. We’d talked online for a couple of weeks, but it was the first time we’d met in person, at a bookstore coffee shop. Every year we marked that day, either by going back to the bookstore, or stopping off for burritos at the site of our first dinner.

I’ve been going in world quite often in the past few weeks, I’m not sure why but I’ve felt a need to rejoin Second Life after keeping it at arms length for so long. For much of that time when I did log in I did so as an alt, wanting to distance myself a bit. Ravensong was tied so closely to NaturesZen, my husband’s av, that seeing her in world without him around was actually depressing and stressful. It was like going to our favorite places in real life alone. It just wasn’t the same, I missed having him with me.

Lately I’ve been logging in with Raven again and rediscovering my bond with her. I’m trying to be more social. I’ve been feeling driven to start taking pics again and remembering how much fun it is. I’ve also been logging in one of my hub’s alts simultaneously, I’m not sure why but just having his alt online is comforting. Maybe it makes me feel that my husband is still with me, even though his alt looks nothing like either my hub or his main. Maybe it’s just that with that other avatar there I can enjoy the illusion that I’m a little less alone in virtual space.

I was laughing with one of my friends the other day that I feel like I’m up to something because I’ve stolen my alt’s partner so I can enjoy cute cuddle poses. I have no idea if this is just a random distraction as I move through the second year of grieving, or if it’s helping in some way. I know there must be many, many people who’ve gone through similar things as me… other SLers who lost a partner who they shared both their real and virtual lives with. I often wonder what their journey is like, how they view the world now, how they move forward.

For now I think I’ll just go out for my first date anniversary burrito.

 

Contemplating this whilst visiting Leka.

 

Totally Immersed

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Jul 072015
 

He did appear to be quite immersed in the tour.

For the past day or two keeping up with the posts in the #immersivedrax tag on Twitter has  been fabulous! When Strawberry Singh gave us a FlatDraxtor meme challenge I had to take part. 😀  Here’s the problem though: where do you take a guy that is always up to date on the very best things that Second Life has to offer? It was quite a dilemma. In the end I thought I’d just give ImmersiveDrax a quick tour of my home platform.

Draxtor! Watch your step!

Of course one must never forget that sky platforms can be dangerous places, particularly if you are totally immersed. Always keep an eye on your immersed friends if they start to wander around. That first wrong step would be a doozy!

Don’t miss all the #immersiveDrax pics on Twitter. They are fantastic!

Held

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Jul 032015
 

Sometimes as you play with your pose adjusters you stumble across a scene, and you wonder, ‘what’s the backstory here?’


Her hair: Elikatira “Lena”
Her Dress: The Muses “Mellei”
Her skin: League “Erin”
His coat: ZED “Distressed Black Goth Leather Coat
His ears: Sinful Needs “Fae Elf Ears 4
His eyes: “FATEeyes v3.0″
His skin: Nivaro “Cunov springtone”
His beard: Unorthodox “Blitz Facial Hair” 
His hair: Truth (discontinued)

I found my muse, she was in the gazebo the whole time…

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Jun 222015
 

Night writer…

Where did the time go? It seems like I rezzed my little studio at Medici University only a few days ago, and now it’s near the end of the MU year. I wish I’d attended more events and made an attempt to interact so I could have met my talented classmates and perhaps made some new friends, but I was just a little too distracted by RL to visit SL very much. It’s still all good, and I’m glad I’ve tried to take part.

Even though I wasn’t in world very often, I did my best to log in now and then to visit the campus to see what others were creating. When everything was quiet I’d wander around and look for interactive things, as one does. 😀

Taking a break from writing to be fashionable on Paypaback Writer’s pose stand :D

Most of the time I parked my avvie at my desk, and while SLme typed away on a virtual laptop, RLme  thought I’d work on my creative writing. I didn’t manage to take part in any of the programs on campus, yet just sitting in the little gazebo I found myself rediscovering my muse. I pulled out old stories, I rewrote, I explored new ideas, I lost track of time as I recaptured the joy I used to feel in creating something.

My little corner of the world

Even if it’s currently for my eyes only it has reminded me just how much I love making my own worlds and filling them with people.  As a source of creative inspiration I’d say MU has been a resounding success for me!

Thank you Izzy and Vanessa and all the amazing and talented folks who built such a wonderful place!

Yay, MU!

Jun 132015
 

Some days you just wake up with an image in your head and then, of course, you must do some serious shopping to find just the right things, and then you have to look around for just the right location and try out a thousand different atmosphere settings and then you wonder how six hours passed in the span of two or three minutes. It’s just the darndest thing.

In my first couple of years in SL I spent much of my time running around in attire that would have been well suited for a Renaissance faire, but with the rise of mesh I abandoned my fantasy wear for the contemporary casual look. I’d forgot how much fun it is to dress up.

I am now very happy. ^_^

And I am in love with my dress. <3

 

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Politely crediting:

Her dress: Senzafine  “Caterina”
Her necklace: Maxi Gossamer – Alexa Black choker pearls
Her eyes: Ikon Horizon
Her skin: League Isla medium
Her hair: Truth Courtney (pre-mesh, but I see it’s still available in their discount room for 50L a pack)

His coat: The Muses “Dragon
His ears: Sinful Needs Fae Elf Ears 4
His eyes: FATEeyes v3.0
His skin: Nivaro Cunov springtone
His hair: Truth Elysium (heavily modded) I think this is long since discontinued.

Both:
Hands: Slink

Backdrop: Skye Neist Point

7 Random Thoughts, in No Particular Order

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May 072015
 


1. I miss SL Go. I wish I’d used it more often. But Bright Canopy sounds promising, especially when my insistence on cranking my graphics settings up as high as I can has been making my laptop cry.

2. Should I have really ordered that pizza tonight? I mean, really?

3. I really like the way mesh bodies look, but I still laugh every time I tp somewhere and find a whole bunch of mesh-bod wearing avatars who look like disembodied heads with a collection of nude body parts and stiff articles of clothing floating around them until everything finishes rezzing.

4. I need to make a list of sims I want to visit and start taking pics more often. WindWept was a good start! It’s a lovely, watery sim with lots of good places for photos, lots of places to sit and chat or cuddle with someone special, and a few fun hidden places to discover.

5. It was probably not the best of ideas to try to start a blog challenge when I’m stressed about job hunting and am having a hard time focusing on that.

6. I also need to make a list of real world places to go and start taking pics again. I really miss going out and snapping photos, and I know the primary reason that I stopped was because I miss my husband, he was my exploring partner and could always find cool things.

7. Who cares if the pizza was a bad diet choice! It was tasty. 😀

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Visit WindWept!

Or find more from my trip at my Flickr :)

May 022015
 

I’m the worst learner at Medici University. Seriously. I signed up, rezzed my little gazebo studio, wandered around for the first week to a couple of events, then I got distracted and wandered away.

Okay, some of it may have had to do with various aspects of RL distracting me so much that I couldn’t focus on SL. Some of it has to do with my laptop suddenly deciding that half of my favorite sims are going to send me into a downward spiral of lag that will seize control of my viewer and kick me out if I so much as dare to cam around looking for good camera angles.

But even with somewhat valid excuses for not logging in, I’m still the worst learner at MU. I signed up for creative writing, but I’m barely writing.  Well, I take that back, I’m writing a lot, but it’s mostly been journaling in notebooks, I’ve been bad about keeping up with blogging. To to remedy this I think I’ll make an attempt to do Ryan’s May 1-2-31 challenge. A blog post every day? Related to numbers? (Which I presume should be in sequence…) Ahahahahahaha! I’m completely insane. But hey, I’ll give it a shot. I want to be a good student who participates in something before the term is up.

Now, of course, I have a month worth of posts to consider and I haven’t the foggiest idea what I’ll talk about. I’ve read a lot of advice about finding your blogging niche, but I’m still adrift here. I think my biggest challenge when blogging about SL is trying to stick to SL topics. I often struggle with whether or not I should blog RL thoughts here because I still see so many people talk about keeping a strict divide between SL and RL, and I find that when I’m not sure what to say I just abandon my thoughts entirely. I really suck at splitting my interests up between different accounts so I have SL here, RL there, music to the left, crafts upstairs, and spirituality down the hall. On the one hand, I enjoy reading blogs that pull everything in, because it’s an extension of people watching for me, and I enjoy writing about whatever pops into my head. But, on the other hand, I know that not everyone wants to read about Every Single Interest you have.

As if trying to figure out what to write about isn’t enough, lately I struggle to figure out my place in Second Life. Sometimes I feel like I cling to SL because my late husband and I shared so many happy adventures there, and I’m not ready to let experiences like that go. I’m beginning to wonder if I keep this blog going because it anchors me to Second Life and gives me a reason to keep going back in world on a regular basis. I still love being in world, I still lose hours just wandering around, or trying on outfit after outfit, but occasionally I feel like I should be doing more, I should be having adventures, I should be taking advantage of all the fun and exciting things people can do in SL,

Maybe I need to stop trying to figure out the right way to do Second Life, and the right way to blog, and just go merrily forward being me, one step at a time.