May 072015
 


1. I miss SL Go. I wish I’d used it more often. But Bright Canopy sounds promising, especially when my insistence on cranking my graphics settings up as high as I can has been making my laptop cry.

2. Should I have really ordered that pizza tonight? I mean, really?

3. I really like the way mesh bodies look, but I still laugh every time I tp somewhere and find a whole bunch of mesh-bod wearing avatars who look like disembodied heads with a collection of nude body parts and stiff articles of clothing floating around them until everything finishes rezzing.

4. I need to make a list of sims I want to visit and start taking pics more often. WindWept was a good start! It’s a lovely, watery sim with lots of good places for photos, lots of places to sit and chat or cuddle with someone special, and a few fun hidden places to discover.

5. It was probably not the best of ideas to try to start a blog challenge when I’m stressed about job hunting and am having a hard time focusing on that.

6. I also need to make a list of real world places to go and start taking pics again. I really miss going out and snapping photos, and I know the primary reason that I stopped was because I miss my husband, he was my exploring partner and could always find cool things.

7. Who cares if the pizza was a bad diet choice! It was tasty. ūüėÄ

~

Visit WindWept!

Or find more from my trip at my Flickr :)

May 022015
 

I’m the worst learner at Medici University. Seriously. I signed up, rezzed my little gazebo studio, wandered around for the first week to a couple of events, then I got distracted and wandered away.

Okay, some of it may have had to do with various aspects of RL distracting me so much that I couldn’t focus on SL. Some of it has to do with my laptop suddenly deciding that half of my favorite sims are going to send me into a downward spiral of lag that will seize control of my viewer and kick me out if I so much as dare to cam around looking for good camera angles.

But even with somewhat valid excuses for not logging in, I’m still the worst learner at MU. I¬†signed up for creative writing, but I’m barely writing. ¬†Well,¬†I take that back, I’m writing a lot, but it’s mostly been journaling in notebooks, I’ve been bad about keeping up with blogging.¬†To to remedy this I think I’ll make an attempt to do Ryan’s May 1-2-31 challenge. A blog post every day? Related to numbers? (Which I presume should be in sequence…) Ahahahahahaha! I’m completely insane.¬†But hey, I’ll give it a shot. I want to be a good student who participates in something before the term is up.

Now, of course, I have a month worth of posts to consider and I haven‚Äôt the foggiest idea what I‚Äôll talk about. I’ve read a lot of advice¬†about finding¬†your¬†blogging niche, but I‚Äôm still adrift here.¬†I think my biggest challenge when blogging about SL is trying to stick¬†to SL topics. I often struggle with whether or not I should blog RL thoughts here¬†because I still see so¬†many people talk about keeping a strict divide between SL and RL, and I find that when I’m not sure what to say I just abandon my thoughts entirely. I really suck at splitting my interests up between different accounts so I have SL here, RL there, music to the left, crafts upstairs, and spirituality down the hall. On the one hand,¬†I enjoy reading blogs that pull everything in, because it’s an extension of people watching for me, and I enjoy writing about whatever pops into my head. But, on the other hand, I know that not everyone wants to read about Every Single Interest you have.

As if trying to figure out what to write about isn’t enough, lately I struggle to figure out my place in Second Life. Sometimes I feel like I cling to SL because my late husband and I shared so many happy adventures there,¬†and¬†I’m not ready to let experiences like that go. I’m beginning to wonder if I keep this blog going because it anchors me to Second Life and gives me a reason to keep going back in world on a regular basis. I still love being in world, I still lose hours just wandering around, or trying on outfit after outfit, but occasionally I feel like I should be doing more, I should be having adventures, I should be taking advantage of all the fun and exciting things people can do in SL,

Maybe I need to stop trying to figure out the right way to do Second Life, and the right way to blog, and just go merrily forward being me, one step at a time.

Distractions and Double Threat Memes

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Apr 152015
 

I haven’t been keeping up with the blog lately, again. Things were going along swimmingly, then RL decided to poop on my head right around mid March and I haven’t quite recovered. I didn’t really want to blog about how irritating it is to be laid off just when you were really starting to enjoy your job, or how even more irritating it is when after this happens you start having things around your property fall apart and the repair estimates make you want to hide under the bed. I tried log into SL¬†a¬†few times and at least attend meditation sits,¬†which do sort of help with my focus and stress, but for the most part I just couldn’t get into going in world. Second Life, I love you to bits, but you don’t really lend yourself to allowing me to vent about my RL woes, or to escape from them by immersing myself in sharing new concert clips and¬†flailing about with fellow fans over phenomenal set lists and awesome new pics and generally being a giddy fangirl.

It’s times like this you realize how fortunate you are to have good friends to lean on. None of them read this blog but I still want to just take a moment to be so exceptionally thankful¬†for my¬†little groups of friends in various corners of the internet,¬†I can’t imagine where I’d be without them. All ¬†have helped me survive the past year and a half (and the stinky past couple of weeks), they’ve listened to me ramble in dms and forum posts and on Skype, they’ve been there when I needed them. And so, thank you, thank you, thank you. I love all of you more than you can ever imagine. :)

Lately I may be back to myself. Or sort of myself. Or at least I thought I’d blog something because I really, really, really need to write. And so here I am. Yay! ¬†I thought I’d catch up this week by grabbing the recent Berry memes that I’d skipped over.¬†First I’ll try the¬†The Double Threat Meme.

Two online screen names¬†you’ve¬†had:¬†For the most part every username I had prior to about ten years ago was a total throwaway, I saw no reason to build a uniform online presence so I just made something up if I wanted to join a service, and forgot about it later. As a result I don’t even remember what most of my AOL usernames were (and I had a bunch because I kept making new ones and deleting old ones. But in general everything either of these two: ¬†1) Some weird spelling variation of Rhiannon, I was determined to use that name in my early internet days, and so was everybody else it seemed, so unless I wanted to resort to adding numbers to my username, which I hate hate hate, I had to get creative¬†2)¬†Some spelling variation of “fairy” coupled with a season.

Two video games¬†you’ve¬†played: 1)¬†Various versions of the Sims. 2)¬†Tetris. I loved Tetris.

Two things you love about Second Life:  1) My inventory! ♥  2) Seeing the cool things other people make.

Two things¬†you’ve¬†done in Second Life:¬†1)¬†I¬†built a replica of the air studio from my college radio station, I was always really proud of that. ¬†2) I got to be a shopkeeper for a while

Two things you still want to do in Second Life: 1) Own an island! 2) Maybe learn to do mesh

Two things you like about your Second Life avatar:¬†1) They all have great clothes! 2)¬†They’re so pretty. :)

Two of your Second Life Pet Peeves:¬† 1) Random friend requests¬†are weird when they¬†appear out of the blue¬†from someone you’ve never seen or spoken to. 2) The idea that I can’t transfer inventory between my own accounts has always been a pet peeve.

Two things you did as a newb that you‚Äôre embarrassed of: I didn’t really do much¬†as a newb, I mostly just wandered around by myself and looked at stuff, and if I saw anybody on my radar who looked like they were coming towards me I’d tp out¬†immediately.

Two of your closest friends in Second Life:¬† I have friends in SL who I enjoy saying hello to and chatting with, but still there’s not really anyone that I hang out or¬†share things with in the way that I do with my closest friends¬†(who are all also people I only get to interact with online, I do wish I could get them into SL but alas…) I often see bloggers talk about their amazing friendships in world and I wish I’d found that, but I guess I’ve just never met really like minded folks in SL. That’s entirely my fault, I let anxiety get the better of me and don’t really try, or even know how to find people who share my interests. In some ways the people in SL put me in mind of the cool kids in school who I just automatically guess will think I’m boring. SL people always seem much more grown up and interesting – they’re¬†chatty, they’re sociable, they’re exciting, and I’m a total dork who never knows what to say, so I just stay in the background.
Okay, That was a bit of a whine. Whaaa.

Two of the most beloved things in your inventory:¬†1) The wedding ring set that I made for my avatar because I felt like she needed to be wearing a ring. 2) The aforementioned radio station is a grouped item in my inventory that I’m always afraid I’ll mess up.

So! My next goal¬†is to get myself logged in and try to participate in something at Medici University before it goes away. My intentions when I joined were good, but all the offline stress just torpedoed my desire to do much of anything beyond consuming passive entertainment and pestering people to talk to me.¬†Can’t do that forever though, it’s time to do something new and fun and different (I tell myself). Positive thinking ftw right? \o/

Now I’ll see how far I can get before I’m distracted by something again.

 

Mar 242015
 

It seems that this week OnLive decided to make Firestorm the only¬†viewer¬†for their mobile SL Go apps. Yay for that! Since they added Firestorm for the desktop app I’d¬†been trying out¬†SL Go for my aging iMac, and it works great, (even though the 720p resolution is frustrating on a higher res monitor) but¬†I haven’t paid as much attention to the mobile¬†apps because the only option was¬†the official LL viewer. Now that it defaults to Firestorm I had to try it again. When I found myself sitting around waiting for my mother to finish up an appointment this afternoon it seemed like a perfect time to¬†give it a test drive.

SL Go on a Nexus 4

If I look frustrated, it’s because I can’t figure out how to leave my house.

The only trouble with my experiment is I was trying this on a phone, and¬†SL on a 4.7 inch screen is pretty darn tiny. It rendered fast, it looked great, and I wasn’t getting any blurring, but¬†trying to select anything in the UI is¬†not easy. Pinch and zoom, attempt to select, click the wrong thing anyway, zoom back out, try again… It was a challenge. I couldn’t get my landmarks to scroll so I thought I’d type a sim name in search and go exploring that way, but¬†it¬†didn’t feel like recognizing my on screen keyboard. With no handy landmarks I was trapped in my house, but hey, my house was rendering fabulously, so that’s something, I guess. ūüėÄ ¬†I did try later on the iPad with a bluetooth keyboard and everything worked really well and looked nice, so yay for Firestorm on SL Go! If I ever have some need to log into SL late at night when I don’t have the laptop handy I can always grab the ipad and¬†I’ll be all set.

Meanwhile, sitting around this afternoon also gave me time to take a look at the Monday Meme. ¬†Strawberry Singh has a quick and easy¬†one this week, and I couldn’t resist. Her instructions:

Copy and paste the following statements in your post and complete them writing down the first thing that pops into your head. Don’t forget to link your post in the comments (here).

I am… pretty awesome ūüėÄ
I want…¬†to find the motivation to exercise regularly
I have…¬†so much to be grateful for.
I wish…¬†the¬†concerts I want to see weren’t always so far away.
I hate… being laid off :(
I fear… the future
I search… for things often, because I misplace stuff a lot.
I wonder… if I’ve ever made a difference for someone
I regret… abandoning my diet just when I was almost at my goal
I never… thought I’d be a widow in my 40s.
I always…¬†light a candle for my husband every night, just because it feels right to do so.
I usually…¬†procrastinate
I dance… infrequently.
I sing… all the time (when I’m alone)
I often… log into SL, switch to Chrome to surf while everything loads, then forget I’m still in SL.
I sometimes… spend hours just trying outfits on my avvie and moving stuff around in my house.
I cry…¬†a lot.
I need… to network and find a terrific new job
I should…¬†go to bed earlier.
I love… blasting my car stereo at top volume \(^_^)/

I’ll add one

I will…¬†get through this RL rough patch and move on to even better things!

Thanks Berry, hope you’re having a fantastic spring break!

Mar 102015
 

This week’s Strawberry Singh challenge is the First and Recent Challenge. We’re to post our first blog pic, and a recent blog pic, so we can see the changes we’ve gone through. ¬†Rather than grab an early blog pic, which would only be a couple years old, I went further back and pulled a shot from March ¬†2007 , when I was just a month old. I¬†snapped my now image earlier this evening.

I think I am still wearing one of the early newbie skins here, or possibly something from a freebie pack. The clothes were all from Little Rebel, and the hair was Gurl6. At the time I thought I looked awesome, although I seemed to be having some hair sizing issues here and it’s growing out of the sides of my face. There is just a bit of a difference between then and now!

When I was looking back through pics it was interesting to watch my fashion choices. In the early days I wore a lot of contemporary casual things, but I also went for a lot of costumey clothes, faerie wings, frilly ballerina skirts, or fantasy wear. At some point, probably with the rise of mesh, I stopped dressing in quirky outfits and started dressing very much like my RL self would if I were at my goal weight and had the cash to go on a shopping spree. I suspect it was because early mesh clothes seemed to be more real life fashion based and I wanted to try out the newest thing. I certainly love my avatar wardrobe, but I do miss my offbeat clothes sometimes.

Early on in my second life I wasn’t blogging,¬†though I did start posting pics to Flickr later in the year. Then, as now, I took a lot of selfies, and then, as now, I never post most of them. ¬†I’d like to think I’ve gotten better at composing images, I don’t tend to take so many clueless tourist¬†shots where I’m standing idly in front of some build. I still flirt with the idea of doing fashion pics because half my time is spent just trying on outfits and admiring myself, but I haven’t quite reached that point yet. And I’m not really sure my avatars have that much fashion sense anyway, like me they just wear what they want. ūüėÄ

Berry also asked if we’d like to join in the DearMe initiative and write a note to our teenage self. As a teen I was fortunate enough to have a family who were always supportive and told me I could do anything I set my mind to. But like many girls who carried a little extra weight around, I was teased at school and terribly self conscious so¬†I was always afraid to do anything that would make me stand out and be noticed, because I was afraid I’d look silly and be laughed at. So what would I tell myself?

Dear Me:

You are absolutely beautiful, talented, and creative. Don’t listen to anyone when they tease you, and don’t let them shake your confidence in yourself. High school may feel rough but hang in there, when you get to college it is all going to change and you’ll meet people who are just as weird and goofy and amazing as you are. And when you worry that you’ll never have a boyfriend – just be patient because you really will met your soul mate one day.¬†Don’t be afraid to stand out, don’t be afraid to take chances and follow your dreams. Life is going to work out beautifully for you. ‚ô•

Love,
Your future self.

I¬†felt too cute and had to take a full shot. I splurged on the Maitreya Lara body and I really like how I can plump it up a wee bit more, especially when I’m in fitted mesh. I may even have to start wearing more skirts and dresses when it gets a little warmer. Yes, it is a quirk I have… if it is cold outside in RL I cannot bring myself to dress my av in summery¬†clothes because hey, if I’m cold then my avatar is cold too.

The rare attempt at image credits ūüėÄ

Blueberry Shoulder Jacket & tank top
Maitreya Zipper-Skinny Jeans * #4 updated for Lara Mesh Body
Baiastice_London Sneakers-Print-PinkLace at the Arcade
Glasses: K_gs Sploit 1.03
Hair: Dura-Boys&Girls*48(Coffee)
Skin: League Erin Pale (no brow)
[mock]Smoothie LipColor [Burnt Peach]
IKON Horizon Eyes – Dark Gray-Green
Eyebrow/ face details tattoo layer my own

Transformations

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Mar 032015
 

Strawberry Singh’s¬†mission for us this¬†week: the Avatar Transformation Challenge:

Meme instructions: Transform your avatar completely so that even your friends¬†wouldn’t¬†recognize you. Don‚Äôt forget to share the link to your image in the¬†comments (here) and add your pictures to the Blog Memes flickr group.

The rules said we had to stick to our usual gender and species. That made it a little tricker, but the rules didn’t say we had to stay the same age, so I thought I’d revisit my childhood. ūüėÄ

I’ve never tried to create a kid avatar and wasn’t sure what to wear. I don’t really have an interest in being an SL kid so I didn’t want to buy new clothes I’d only wear once, and most of the stuff I had in inventory didn’t work too well. I had a nice pair of gym shoes that fit, but otherwise mesh was totally out and the system shirts had too much boob shading. Unfortunately this left my youthful self stuck with library clothes, but that’s okay, I was just going to get them all dirty on the playground anyway.

I thought while I was reliving my childhood I should find a good place to visit, and the first that popped into my head was Livingtree, so off I went to goof around. It was fun to have the whole playground to myself!

I didn’t change my face sliders dramatically, just enough to try to look a little more kid-like. Still, I suspect if I had run across any friends they wouldn’t have known who I am unless they read my name tag. If I showed up as a¬†tiny, or some other little non-human critter it wouldn’t have been unusual at all, nor would being any form of elf or faerie, but a kid av would be unexpected.¬†¬†I’m not sure how good a job I did making a kid version of myself, but it was fun to give it a try. ūüėÄ

Feb 172015
 

This weeks Monday Meme from Strawberry Singh asks Have you ever SecondLifed?

Well, maybe a little.

  1. Have you ever owned a sim in Second Life? ‚Äď No, but It‚Äôs still a dream.
  2. Have you ever created content in Second Life? ‚Äďwwglen¬†Oh yes. Tons of stuff. I make little things all the time.¬†I make decorations for my house, or things for my avatar. Once upon a time, in my early days, I even had a shop, with various pagan themed home decor. My inventory¬†all looks so dated and basic now, so very 2007, but I love all my scultpy creations and still pull them out to decorate my house. ¬†Sometimes I miss that¬†little store. ‚ô•
  3. Have you ever driven a vehicle in Second Life? ‚Äď Yes, I have tried several times and I am still terrible at it. I’m a hazard to myself and anyone around me.
  4. Have you ever gone sky diving in Second Life? ‚Äď I don‚Äôt suppose inadvertently walking off my platform counts, does it? I haven’t skydived out of a plane, but we used to go parachuting off the Eiffel Tower. ¬†After our first visit my husband¬†would wear his parachute all the time, and was constantly¬†looking for tall places to jump from. ūüėÄ
  5. Have you ever played a sport in Second Life? ‚Äď No.
  6. Have you ever gone clubbing in Second Life? ‚ÄstNot often, and it’s been a long time since I’ve been to a club.
  7. Have you ever fangirled/fanboyed someone in Second Life? ‚Äď Once in a while at events or stores I’ll recognize a blogger’s name and think it’s neat to spot them out in the wild. I’ve never felt fangirly over anybody in SL though.
  8. Have you ever taken a picture of your avatar in water in Second Life?¬†A few times, but when I went looking for a pic I realized it wasn’t as often as I’d thought.
  9. Have you ever taken a picture of a sunset in Second Life? ‚ÄstLots and lots. I even have a few pre-windlight ones, but I really started having fun after windlight. This is a few years old, but I still like it.
  10. Have you ever taken a nude picture of your avatar in Second Life? ‚Äď ¬†Maayyybeee… and my guy alt can look pretty cute sometimes so… lol. Really, though, I tend to keep my avvies dressed all the time.
  11. Have you ever dated in Second Life? ‚Äď No. I joined with my husband, so it was never something that crossed my mind. Now I can’t even imagine dating in SL, I think it would feel really weird.
  12. Have you ever had or attended a wedding in Second Life? ‚Äď I’ve attended quite a few weddings. At least one of the couples is still partnered.
  13. Have you ever drank, smoked or taken drugs in Second Life? ‚ÄstI have attached the occasional champagne at the aforementioned weddings. My avvies don’t smoke though. I quit IRL a good dozen years ago and I refuse to let my avvies pick up the habit. And¬†how do you even take drugs in SL? o.O
  14. Have you ever engaged in sexual activity in Second Life? ‚ÄstThe hub and I occasionally hopped on pose furniture for giggles, but pixel sex¬†with emotes and everything? Nah. I imagine that’s much more meaningful if you’re in a long distance relationship.
  15. Have you ever been to Bukkake Bliss in Second Life? ‚ÄstHaha, no.¬†I see it mentioned a lot in blogs but I’ve never been there.

Thank you Berry, for the questions! ūüėÄ