On November 1, 2013 I lost my husband Jeff to a sudden heart attack. He was the love of my life, the one true love that I’d waited my entire life for, my knight in shining armor. My world. People talk about soul mates, they toss the word around to describe anybody they think they are mostly compatible with, or to talk about some sort of wish fulfillment relationship where their future partner will have absolutely every quality they are hoping for. I never really thought they were a thing, until I met my husband. When I fell in love with him I knew, I knew, I had found my soul mate. He wasn’t perfect, and neither am I. We had faults, flaws, disagreements, but through it all I still felt a bond with him that I can’t even explain, I felt like we were a part of each other. He was, he still is, the love of my life, my one and only.
In Second Life he was Natureszen Writer: A builder, an artist, a friend. He loved nothing more than creating things, finding gadgets, exploring cool new places. He loved to make things, he would sometimes log in and spend hours building things just for the joy of it. If he thought of something he wanted to make in real life he’d try to make it in SL first. He never grew disillusioned with Second Life, even if he took extended breaks from it at times because of RL responsibilities he always retained his love for this little virtual space and would talk about it enthusiastically to anyone who might listen. I’ve tried to honor him here but I can’t begin to express how deeply I miss him, offline, online, everywhere. I feel as though part of myself is gone forever.
We joined SL together, he was with me at the the very beginning of our adventures and every step of the way since. Sometimes he was a tiny rhino musician, or a robot, or a dragon, or whatever cool avatar he found that he thought would be fun to wear for a while. Above all he was always my best friend in any and every world. I’ve blogged about him and shared images here and on Flickr many times over the years. I miss him with every breath I take, sharing our adventures in SL was the best part of my virtual life. Sharing our lives in real life was the best part of my whole world.
As I try to learn how to carry on in my first life I will try to honor his memory, accomplish the goals we had, and do the things we always dreamed of. As I travel around SL I hope I can carry his spirit of adventure and fun along with me.
I love you so much, my amazing, wonderful. handsome husband. I will love you forever, in this world and all others.